as if time was against us

by blake ellington larson

we let our ties slip

undid our tucked-in shirts
and cut loose for the beach

at Saturns
after the sun had set
we saw a flash of crimson
on the horizon
and we swept our tears into
the tide that
scotty had tossed his
father’s ashes into

we chased our hearts

like shots of liquor
through back rubs
and moon howling’s
to quench our thirst

your favorite songs
in our enormous emptied bellies
ached like hungry’d ghosts
for some kind of
perfect nostalgia

full-tilt memories of you

and not

your accidental death